My full body just aches, it feels like I’ve been ran over by a huge truck that’s going 100mph that has then reversed back on to me. I feel lost and alone. I have a perfect boyfriend and such an amazing relationship that I wouldn’t change for anything, and yet, I still manage to mess things up to the point that I hurt so much just thinking about what I’m doing to him. I’m so emotionally damaged that it’s like I don’t even know how to love anyone, let alone be able to keep such a perfect relationship running smoothly, I’m breaking my own heart and let me tell you something, it hurts. A lot.